Too fast!

Right when you think you have control of your life, something happens or someone just walks right into your life that just makes you take a step back and just think "wow, this is my life and this is it."

I'm sitting in Starbucks and this girl that I went to high school walked in. I haven't seen her since i've graduated and she's already married and has a house. Crazy! I still feel like i'm so young, with all these dreams and expectations of life. Can you imagine settling down right now? I have nothing against people that already are, but as of right now, that's just not me, there's so much of this world I want to explore, to see and experience. I want to get so overwhelmed with anxiety, break down and cry, stand up, get back on my feet and become the stronger person that I was meant to be.

I see people my age, maybe a little bit older with children and I just can't picture it. I can't picture; in a sense to end my life just so I can take care of someone else's. That's not who I am, maybe I'm selfish. But these are my 20's and I feel like after college or rather, after the 19 - 22 stage life is supposed to get better.

This is the time in my life where I'm trying to fully discover myself and develop a group of friends that I truly care about. As of right now I am and I'm loving it. :)...

My friend made a good point the other day, saying that so many people in this world are asleep, awaiting to be woken up from their slumbers and the ones that are are the ones that aren't afraid to fail. Maybe not afraid but are willing to accept that it's okay to fail.

I really am petrified of going to South Korea but I know that it's something I have to experience and I need to learn more about myself. My whole life I've been babied by my parents and my older siblings and I've been taken care of. This is the real time in my life where I need to prove to myself that I can stand on my own two feet, succeed and take on life head on.

Oh life, I hate you but love you so much.