Where'd it go?

she sits and waits
waits for something, anything
something to take care of, something to take her pain away
she feels useless because her job as a mother is done and doesn't know what else there is

for over 30 years she spent her life raising children, and now what?
what else is there?
She never had time to think past that
to think past the smelly diapers, first walks, rebellious teens and finally seeing her children grow into adults
graduations, career paths, grand children?

she sits and waits for something to fill her life again
until then, she will wait, not being able to see that she is fully capable of loving herself.
She strives to love others to get that feeling of inner love.
All her love has been for her kids, her focus, on her children, the stay-at-home mom, the trophy wife
her job is done and she is left clueless and scared at the reality of life.
To finally be able to see herself in the mirror, she refuses

You are beautiful and if only you could see that,
see that you truly are the incredible person that you dreamed of.
Martha is proud of you. Your children are proud of you

See life in the light you've always wished to see.
It's there

You're worth it
If only you could see what I see

I want to take your pain away and it hurts so badly every time I see you cry.

What happened to that mom I saw with that smile on your face?
That genuine smile
Where'd you go?